​j. sula
DIVINITY / THE LIGHT
[Verse 1]
Momma why you always running after me like I did ya wrong?
Momma I wish I could tell you what's going on
Momma I see tears in your eyes, I know that you hurting
Momma I want to believe that all your prayers been working
Momma don’t trust me too much but I get it, I do
Why's it so easy to lie than just tell the truth?
I hate how people want the drip more than they want a diploma
Screwed up at fourteen, thinking life was 'bout to be over
Playing life believing that I had the controller
But it’s in God's hands, He knew I ain't have the right motive
I know He show up, but I don't, and that ain't the quota
I'm out here living, and sinning, milly rock in Magnolia
I go to work, and make some planes fly
But I don't know what to do when I see my girl cry
Thought summer was bad, and then it turned into the autumn
Could be closer to my dad, but man I don't even call him
It’s like it’s me in here
It's like I’m stranded in a sea of fear
Hoping that the feeling clears
But it gets worse, and soon enough I'm in a sea of tears
Don't wanna sound messy but I need a miracle to appear
Pronto, God made me a point guard but I'm just not Rondo
Please call a lifeline before my life low
I wanna be free, you know I hate to lie low
Just tell the truth, what you gotta lie for?
[Verse 2]
You know that I can’t just let it go
Sleepless, speechless nights
Thinking 'bout the lights
I can't get no rest
I just wanna dream of you and me, you and me
Talking 'bout a trilogy, trilogy
Love how you so real with me
You're my anchor in the shifting sea
I can't be so certain
Hands behind that curtain
Heed my warnings, I got questions (yeah)
In the morning, all new blessings (yeah)
Gotta embellish it or I won't be good selling it
Love hearing of honesty but I'm not good at telling it
I wish you could just see my point of view
Then it'd make sense

[Verse 3]
It's always green on the grass on the other side
Leaving the past in the trash, that's another time, yeah
(Leaving the green on the grass, that's another line)
Now's the perfect time
(Keep coming back to the past, that's a troubled time)
It's always green on the grass on the other side
Leave it at that, nothing more for the road this time
(Leaving the green on the grass, that's another line)
That's another time
(Keep coming back to the past, that's a troubled time)
[Verse 4]
I seen better days, I seen better ones
Hard not to feel alone when the weather comes
Building up pressure, until I explode
How it plays out from there, only God knows
I have been hungry, and I have been full
I have had nothing, and I have worn wool
On the nape of my neck, like a cape 'bove the chest
But I'm not like a bird, or a plane, or a Superman
I am just me, and for me that isn't good enough
Worse than I ever was, worse than I ever was
Everybody talking 'bout my full potential
I don't even know the definition of that word you using
Essentially, "potential" coming off as useless