La Dispute
Autofiction Detail
[Verse 1]
Awake at 3 A.M. and pacing
You were working
I was dazed
In the kitchen tracing circles slowly
With the turning of the fan blades
And I left from our apartment
To the corner
Took a right
I saw shadows in the darkness casted
Intermittent in the flashing light
[Chorus]
Of traffic signals blinking
Somehow backwards in my eyes
I saw
A stranger in the glass reflected
No one near me but it can't be mine
[Pre-Chorus]
And the Bible tells of revelations past
Sudden visitations come to prophets stumbling on the path
[Chorus]
And a flash of light alivе in night arrives
A voice from out of time proclaims
Saul on thе road to Damascus
Had a vision and the brightness struck him blind
And so he changed his name
[Post-Chorus]
Mine was no man
I was nothing
Going nowhere
I was gone
I was naked
I was vacant buildings
I was blending with the blight
I was ghostlike
I was hopeless
For no reason said a prayer
Let some holy spirit moment
Come and force in me a change
[Chorus]
A camera hung to capture
On a traffic signal light
And a flash on the path to Damascus
And a change when Saul went blind
[Post-Chorus]
I had visions
In the city every day
Despite it all
And what I saw
My sight remained
[Verse 2]
And the prophets in town all go on
Back and forward nowhere directionless
In their blankets bending down
Shine and strike not with blinded eyes but sight
To look around now
To see and to notice them
To see the smoke cloud
Climbing high
And in the night sky find it
An image where the light shines
And a sign from up above
To see the tent now
Burning bright
And to hear it crying out
The voice of Christ at night
When he stumbled all alone and burned alive
Under the streetlights when he died
Only traffic signals cameras to watch his life extinguished
Glowing white, down
[Interlude]
On the corner by the bus stop
Dead
A woman on the sidewalk
Narcanned back to life she rose again
Walked away
When the paramedics came
Resurrected by a stranger
She disappeared
On Easter
I was there
[Breakdown]
When they pulled into the turnaround
I was standing glowing red at emergency
Looked in every window trying to find you inside
To find a sign
Glowing in the hallways
At the hospital at night
I can see it now
The place where I'd headed since I left
Always here
You
I felt ashamed
You'd see me first and know how badly I needed you
Now I turned around
Heading home-bound
Every current on the ground pulled me back to you
[Chorus]
To stumble on the pathway backwards
Both a burden and gift to see
Every moment we're alive a disaster
A tragedy to be and breathe
[Bridge]
A curving road
A light above
The labored veins
To funnel us
A beating heart
And us the blood
Thinning by the day
[Outro]
A heavy load
The weight of love
A tongue of flames
A welcome flood
A beating heart
And us the blood
A beating heart
A beating heart
A tongue of flames
A light above
The voice of God
A smoking gun
A beating heart
A beating heart
A beating heart
A beating heart
A beating heart
A beating heart
A beating heart
A beating heart
A beaten dog
The snarling teeth
The face of God
A light above
A beating heart
And us the blood
In all of us
A beating heart