Xénothecreator
Why did we ever get older?
(verse:)
Yeah
As nice as you make it sound paper
Package wrapped in hourglass and ganja smoke
It seems like every couple days
I find myself asking
Is this reality or am I jus moving off of perceptions
I made in my head
Gassing you up
When I don't know if I miss you really as much as I say
Yes I'll admit I still dream about you
But more of the moment itself
And less the components
So what I'm asking
Is this really love
Or just another drug
To leave me feeling frozen over
(uh)
See you brought that body, where's your spirit at?
Want you from your sacral chakra to your third eye
Yogananda Paramahansa
Would say that love takes time
But with every sleepless night I rise with newer revelations
Maybe for the sake of both our graces
Head our separate ways
But love is blind
Had this conversation way too many times
Knew this was coming for months
But I tried to play this shit off
By saying we grown and people gotta live
But how the fuck you expect me to feel?
You're never there when I need you
I thought them n***as was coming for me
And I couldn't reach you
But when you fed up with that n***a
You come running back
Cuz sure as shit I'm standing by
Tell you everything I can to ease your soul and get you by
Still I walk alone
Staggered stumbling
Bumbling over
Weight on my shoulders
Can't even feel it
My defense is going fully numb
At the thought of your name
You say you ain't got the time
Nobody ever does
If you ever knew how many paragraphs
And rants of bitter envy in the night I write
Only to recant in the morning cuz I was drinking too much
Anything to feel a warm hug
Cast away my dignity
They only love us artists when we starving
Distraught that we had a thought
But we'd never auctioned it off
Cuz what the fuck's the point
They'll never listen
I'm still standing on the top of that hill
All that's left is silence
I grab the vices again
Yeah
I grab the vices again
Word up