I be feeling like im trapped in my own mind
Always making haste decisions on my own time
Have you ever really sat and heard your own cries
Three suicide notes and they all mine
I be feeling like im trapped in a damn lie
Acting like it dont affect me but im hella shy
Sometimes man a n***a be afraid to feel
N***a really wanna die in the nighttime
I be feeling like my own worst enemy
All these n***as in my phone ain't no friend of me
They gon smile up in your face and talk behind your back
Sometimes man they talking right in front of me
Everybody hand out only one of me
I be asking "n***a xéno who you wanna be"
I don't know right now but I know one thing
Everybody in my phone my fucking enemy
Yea I said it mothafucka you my enemy
Imma run up on yo block with the magazine
Imma pull up with the stick and imma let it blow
Now everybody's dead to me
I just wanna go to sleep and never wake up
Everybody else around me they be taking drugs
Never ask if I'm ok or if I need love
I just wanna go to sleep and never wake up
Have you ever been the product of a fucking lie
Have you ever seen your bank account go fucking dry
Have you ever came home to see your momma cry
Have you ever almost see your fucking daddy die
I know that my little brother looking down from heaven
Saying "xéno got a story better fucking tell it"
I remember all the screaming all the fucking yelling
Got me running from my demons cuz they out to get me
Man it's
Hard for a young n***a for real
Momma couldn't pay the bills so it drove him to steal
Older sister couldn't eat she was hungry for real
All these setbacks might drive a n***a to kill
Himself
But he to pussy for it
Cuz he don't really wanna die but he ain't fighting for it
He ain't fighting for the walls closing in till he can't breath
Cold nights wondering where he finna sleep
He jus take it on the chin and go about his day
He just mask it wit a smile everything's ok
He ain't finna let em in
He won't let em see the weakness he won't let em win
I miss the old me
I wish when I happy that somebody told me
That bravest thing I ever had to do in my life
Was continue to live when I wanted to die
Girl I always was in love with you but didn't show it
Got a script in my head but I never wrote it
Always had the vision but I never spoke it
This story in my head I ain't never told it
It's the story of an angel that fell from the sky
She met a broken down n***a and she fucking cried
They fell in love and they lived till the end of time
It's the story about u and I
Everyday man the angel be giving me hope
We gon make it out the gutter and stop being broke
We gon make it to the top now I fucking know
Everyday the angel beautiful I let her know
I remember looking at the sky iI was on my knees
I said "God why you give this fucking life to me"
And then I met a fallen angel
And I thank her for giving back my life to me