​iamjakehill
​december 23rd
(Static)
Recording this, so, just lettin' you know, let's go
Why won't he come out? I would like to talk to him
He's just gonna fuckin lie to me for a month
Call him and tell him to come out

I just wanna talk to him, not gonna do anything
Just want him to look at me in the eyes like a fuckin' man
And apologize for lying to me, that's all I want
You made me feel like a fucking idiot

So, you, so you were gonna lie about it?
That's just insane, just-
In my face, you fucked on my tour, that is insane!
God, it feels so good to finally know

But I hate that I had to find out the way I did
Feel like an insane boyfriend
Because I suspected that you were fuckin' him by the way you looked at him
I was right

Tell him to come down and help you
Tell him, I wanna talk to him
Talk to me like a fuckin' man, I don't-
Just talk to me like a man, look me in my eyes
A friend of six years
You made me feel like an idiot for a whole tour
Wondering if there was anything going on with you two
Cause I saw it in your fucking eyes, and you lied, and you lied and-

I had this dude in my house
I flew him out, to be my merch guy
Now he's in there, FUCKING MY GIRLFRIEND
My ex-girlfriend

(Sup dude)
I looked you in the fucking eyes and cried to you, in the hotel room.
(I know )

And I flew you out, in my fuckin' house
(Jake, what? I told you that's not true, right?)
Oh, so it changed later? Changes six fuckin' days later?
( How you actin' towards people-)

What do- Ooh, what do you mean? Now look
Do you understand why I was acting the way I was acting? Do you see now?
(I guess)
You wouldn't tell me the truth, and I 100% knew and it was eating me alive

(Like, trust me dude, this shit has been stressin m- us both out and obviously- )
Geez, I'm sorry
Do not care, if you guys had something going on, I just wanted to know the truth
I looked you in the eyes and cried, I gave you a hug and said sorry
From what I saw from my house up until the morning y'all fucked or whatever
There was no just, switch, there's things that lead up to it
-Kidding me? Jesus fuck man, like
It's whatever, and, and the thing is I'm not mad at you guys

I just wanted to know the truth (I just wanted to let you know)
(We, we wanted to get our share, but you know we, like had our fun)
I could've came here with a gun and it's actually crazy
I'm not gonna- I'm not doing that, I'm not fucking mad at you guys
(No, I know, no, I see that now, but red, red.)
I- I did plan on, like helping you out financially and being there for you
I was gonna send you like random thousand dollars occasionally
Just to be there fuckin, help you out with whatever you need

Now I, now I'm just done
Feeling insane for even like suggesting
Maybe there is something (Right ) going on
The way you guys look at each other, the way you-

Gettin gaslighted that entire time
And y'all wanted me on the, you wanted me on the vaaan
Listening to you guys' giggle and have the time of your life
While I'm up there like "What the fuck is going on?"

It's just uhh.. Insane man.. Just God man
Flew you out to my house, six years
Gave you a thousand dollars to quit your job
By the way let's talk in your shout car
Yeah, woulda rather, (-Finding shit)
I would've rather found out by you telling me
Instead of finding out the way I did
I, dude- God, I feel so relieved now

That month of just wondering, eating me alive
Not eating, just thinking that you two are like fucking or something
Now I'm like I know, I feel so-
I can live now dude, I'm so fuckin' happy, god

I hate the way I found out (sigh)
Y'know it's whatever dude
Yeah but, I mean I had a suspicion I was being lied to
So of course, I had to find out some way

Nobody else was gonna tell me
But yeah.. Um..
We're never gonna see each-other
Guess we'll never see each other again

Even then, 'kay? I'm just gonna go now
Y'all two? I'm happy for you, do what you want!
Have a good life! It's all good, I'll see you guys