Defeater
But Breathing
[Verse 1]
Unwanted, but breathing
In the next room, sleeping
My mother, she's crying
And my father's been drinking
In our run-down apartment
Where the roof is still leaking
He's cursing and cussing
It's just the whiskey talking

[Chorus 1]
And I've got lots of memories like this one
Of empty days and nights spent tired and lonesome
But when I think back to all of it
Well, it's all too much
Well, it's all too much when you're just a little kid

[Verse 2]
My little brother, just a newborn baby
In the image of my mother, says he's a blessing
But not to my father, oh how he hates him
An undeserving mistake, he calls him a burden

[Chorus 2]
And I've got lots of memories like this one
Of picking sides and picking fights between them
When I think back to all of it
Well, it's all too much
Well, it's all too much when you're just a little kid
[Bridge]
And when I wake up in the morning it all feels like a bad dream
One that follows you and haunts you endlessly
Yeah, haunts me endlessly

[Verse 3]
Well, broken and beaten from the abuse and the cheating
The addiction, and the lying and the promise of leaving
While my old man was a bastard, I admired and loved him
And us two kids, we were born into a family, not a fortune, no