[Intro]
Hmm-hmm (It's Top, n***a)
Oh-oh (I ain't sung in so long, n***a)

[Chorus]
Never knew how hard it'd get
Never knew it'd come to this
Real dark places where I been
After all, I'm amazed that I conquered it

[Verse 1]
Came from them shootouts
Tell 'em book the stage, ready for to blow the roof off
Walk from out my cage, tell my celly that I moved out
I ain't notice I was fuckin' up my life, but that, they knew about (Lil Top, Lil Top)
Grandpa, how you been, man?
Made twenty-five doin' time, I'm a grown man
Stare inside my eyes, tell no lies, I was fumblin'
I was totin' that fire, rollin' hard off of one Xan'
Tryna find my way without no compass
I wake up every day fuckin' up my cake by doin' dumb shit
Tell that last ho she was fake, you ain't my bae, you ain't no woman
I was fucked up 'bout a fake, look at my face, this shit ain't funny
I was chasin' after somethin' that I ain't wanted
I say I'll face it head-on, ain't no runnin'
I'm the king of the jungle, with some prisoners, end up rumblin'
Had to learn everything ain't finna get solved with my money
I got it all, but tell God I'm needin' somethin'
[Chorus]
Never knew how hard it'd get
Never knew it'd come to this
Real dark places where I been
After all, I'm amazed that I conquered it

[Refrain]
Woah
I don't know what it is holdin' my soul
But I won't give in no more
I gotta go big for my kids, you gon' hear it in these songs

[Verse 2]
On top of that mountain, I smoked K2 and know them pills, I popped that
I hear somethin' wrong that I don't like, I just say, "Where my Glock at?"
People come around just for my lifestyle, thinkin' clear, I ain't like that
Don't none of these people 'posed to be 'round, where the fuck my sister at?
Same day I give 'em fifty grand same day they stealin' out my bag
Same day I pop like twenty Xans and don't remember where I'm at
But I say no more
Go and buy a brand-new home with new locks on the door
Got a brand-new phone, out of contact with them hoes
Privacy jet I done flown with my wife chasin' loads
Young thug n***a, say the life, he don't need no more
Still gon' ride with the sword, I said it's my choice
[Refrain]
Woah
I don't know what it is holdin' my soul
But I won't give in no more
I gotta go big for my kids, you gon' hear it in these songs

[Verse 3]
I got the key, I'ma pop my shit, you try to stop, get knocked, bitch
We gon' start this shit off with some shots, already know how Top get
Tell 'em it's been hard for me to cope, I don't give no fuck about no ho
My son mama snortin' dope, I ain't fallin' off, too many flows
I'm hearin' shit about my four, know it's the five where I reside
You could see the pain all in my eyes, know you see the growth, the way I stride
I done made it out, but most them nights inside, I sat up and I cried
I been holdin' on for the longest, I ain't have no seatbelt on the ride
I'll grab them sticks and I'll ride, what you know about that?
N***a played, I murdered most of them guys, I ain't gotta speak about that
I was bumpin' Peep when I was high, gone off a styrofoam bad
Admittin' I'm tired, you got it, gangster, I ain't tryna be with all that

[Chorus]
Never knew how hard it'd get
Never knew it'd come to this
Real dark places where I been
After all, amazed that I conquered it
[Refrain]
Woah
I don't know what it is holdin' my soul
I'm not givin' in no more
Gotta go big for my kids, you gon' hear it in these songs