​hamilton
Close My Eyes (outside of my mind)
[Chorus]
Yeah, dying in my dreams like every night
It's 3 A.M. and I just wanna close my eyes
Searchin’ for something I will not find (Thing I will not find)
Being happy isn't common in my mind
Lookin' at the sky, know I’m lost (Lost)
Haven't found a purpose or a fucking cause
I feel like a planet drifting off
Burn up in the atmosphere until I'm gone

[Verse]
Outside of my mind is where I stay
I can't take it, toxic people in my way
You wanna say it? Say it to my face (Say it to my face)
I get high as fuck, make money every day
Think about the past, now my heart is hurting bad
All the feelings that I'm never getting back
Why am I alive just to fuckin' die so fast?
It's a shame when you think about the facts
I know that love's a lie, but I’m craving someone else
It gets lonely, my room turning to a cell
Spend entire weeks staying by myself
When I R.I.P I hope I go to hell
Anxiety inside, don’t know what to say
Spend entire days thinking I'm a waste
Put me in my grave
I wanna go away to a place where nobody knows my name
[Chorus]
Dying in my dreams like every night (Oh)
It’s 3 A.M. and I just wanna close my eyes
Searching for something I will not find (Thing I will not find)
Being happy isn't common in my mind
Lookin' at the sky, know I'm lost
Haven’t found a purpose or a fucking cause
I feel like a planet drifting off
Burn up in the atmosphere until I'm gone

[Verse]
I'm gone, I'm gone, nowhere to be found
It feels like my heart is shutting itself down
I'm lost, no cause, leave me in the ground
Only time I'm fitting in, no one around
I lose my mind, running out of time
The point of life is something I will never find
I write these songs to numb the pain inside
You could never know the secrets that I hide