Dystopia
AS OF NOW
I'm 19 living with my parents and I'm not in college
People view me as a bum, and I cannot stop it
Now I'm back on the streets, need to find a place to stay
So I hit up Julian, now it's time to contemplate

Always look to the stars, I find a shooting one
So I make a wish for my career, I know it won't be done
Then I sit and think about the girl I wanna love
All the ones that broke my heart
How things should've gone

I should've listened to my counselor
All I wanted was pussy and power
Possessed by the pussy and the power
I should've listened to my counselor

As of now I'm here to send my bro off to New York yea yea
Talk and contemplate our dreams while we bumping fidlar yea
I got family selling drugs , I got family gang banging
I don't say it proudly I pray that they make it home safely

I fucked up with my baby, now shit is complicated
It's music or I die, and I'm not exaggerating
Hard to be a role model for my little cousins
When I'm out here being wild on Instagram cussin'
Hopefully it won't be long until my name is buzzin
Been working way too hard , me and vuhsace
I Got two friends that's serving for our country
I pray that they live to see the day where I achieve my dreams
Yea, pussy and power
That's all I wanted
Now I'm being haunted
As of now BITCH, i can't change shit
I ain't gunna front Yeah I miss you
I just wanna hug you, then I wanna kiss you
Take u to a restaurant I barely can afford boo
I can't afford to lose you
I can't lose it
The city got faith in me, I gotta ride it
You say that I lied to you
Baby I promise I didn't
You say u hate me
Good riddance cause I'm asshole

As of now, I got some thinking to do
As of now, I can't be thinking of you

I heard you cry on the phone
That's how I really know
That I love you, love u
As of now I'm working towards you
Yeah I really fuck with you

As of now, this is where I'm at and i will grow
As of now this is where im at and i will still grow, u already know ye
Yeah i do it for the city, i do it for my brothers, i do it for my family, i do it for my baby
Ya i do it for my baby girl

Im gon win u back ya