​vii. haze

SADIE
​i still play
​i still play a lot

​my heart broke
​and then the world broke
​and then my brain broke too

​and i don’t know which one to blame
​i just know i’m not the same

​i’ve been drifting
​drifting through the haze
​drifting through the haze

​sometimes it feels like this is not my life
​but someone else’s life
​a phantom pantomime
​of my true life
​and i don’t know how to get back

​sometimes i try to speak
​but all my thoughts fold on themselves
​and all my words come out like paper wings
​that flutter and disintegrate likе ash
​i never recovеred from the crash
​my heart broke
​and then the world broke
​and then my brain broke too

SADIE, SUSAN & BECKETT
​and i don’t know which one to blame
​i just know i’m not the same

SADIE
​i’ve been drifting

SADIE, SUSAN & BECKETT
​drifting through the haze
​drifting through the haze

SADIE
​some days i can’t quite remember
​what i did the night before
​my memories mock me in the darkness
​i can’t tell what’s real or not anymore

SADIE, SUSAN & BECKETT
​my heart broke
​and then the world broke
​and then my brain broke too
​and i don’t know which one to blame
​i just know i’m not the same

SADIE
​i’ve been drifting

SADIE, SUSAN & BECKETT
​drifting through the haze
​drifting through the haze

SADIE
​and i don’t know how to move forward
​how could i leave so much of me behind?

(wolf takes a cigarette and blows a loooooooooong exhale of smoke into sadie’s face

​the lights fade. light applause from wolf, susan, and beckett, as sadie returns to her seat. the electronic loop from the first scene resumes.)

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