Paul Shapera
Asha’s Song
Order, I like order
As a girl, I used to line my dolls in order
Categories, inventories, put everything in order
In a world made of randomness and chaos
Everything put in its space
Just makes the world a better place

Order, categories, inventories lists, and indexes
Groupings, tiers, and sections, this was heaven
Everything put in a place where it should be
It comforts me and takes a world often messy and strеssy
And gives to me a lovely sеnse of peace
A moments peace
Where things can stop for just a minute and just be
Just be
Quietly
A pause so quietly where I can breathe

My life it had a map, it had a plan
An understanding, a trajectory, what's best for me
Then the gnomes changed everything
I lost the way, the plan I’d made, my dreams came to an end
When the darkness had descended
In my apprehension somehow I had friends
I had friends
Love it seemed like it would never ever end
And these friends
Accepted me
Never told me I should change, be differently
Level 5, I can't describe
Our time there, it was wild
Secret recipes, hidden keys to open up reality
I tried to make it fit, to put it all into a list
It was so much, so much, so much, so and so I know I couldn't, couldn't go
Cause it was so much, so I know
I know, I know
I broke
And so I broke

In the end, I stuttered sputtered and I broke
And my friends
Came to an end
William came, we went away
And where I ended up today
I'd like to say
So here's what happened when he took me far away



Stepped into the metaspace, through strands unfolding, bright
Through cosmologic symphonies and sprinkling rainbow light
We went to endless doctors' worlds near and far away
He carried me upon his arms and told me I was safe

Hello doctor, my heart is breaking
Hello doctor, my mind is aching, aching oh
Hello doctor, tell me I'm not dying
Hello doctor, I think I'm crying


I walked through worlds wonderous, upon paths no words can paint
Through forests made of quantum dust, oh trails of lunar waves
Tea with gods and meals with myths through worlds near and far
We camped in astral corners always walking arm in arm

Hello doctor, my heart is breaking
Hello doctor, my mind is aching, aching oh
Hello doctor, tell me I'm not dying
Hello doctor, I think I'm crying



Slowly I felt better as we walked the paths beyond
Till at last, we reached a monastery, pretty and so calm
William sat and told them of the trail we’d tread upon
And they smiled, they said, "Yes, we can help her rebecome"

And so I've been here ever since, have healed, and I feel strong
I like this life of ritual, I like this life of calm
I miss my friends and one day I will see them once again
Then return, this is the life I want, the life I wish to live

Hello doctor, my heart is breaking
Hello doctor, my mind is aching, aching oh
Hello doctor, tell me I'm not dying
Hello doctor, I think I'm crying
Hello doctor, my heart is breaking
Hello doctor, oh my mind is aching, aching oh
Hello doctor, tell me I'm not dying
Hello doctor, I think I'm crying

Hello doctor, my heart is breaking
Oh Hello doctor, oh my mind is aching, aching oh
Hello doctor, please tell me I'm not dying
Hello doctor, I think I'm crying

Hello doctor
Hello doctor
Hello doctor, please tell me I'm not dying
Hello doctor, I think I'm crying