​j. sula
April
[Chorus]
Middle of April, tell me how you carrying on
We don't really talk anymore
I feel like I've been here before, mmm
Baby I'm thankful, got you on my mind all the time
Springtime in the city, I'm crying
Had to leave my past life behind

[Verse 1]
Building bridges over pits I woulda fallen into
Cashing out 'cause all I know is that I'm all in with you
Seen you glowing from a distance, so I gotta get you
Know that feeling like a field of flowers, gosh I miss you
I'm in my mental, I'm just, tryna get it popping
Self-esteem is hella low, I'm giving myself options
I'm often out of pocket, often out of my department
Or out my wheelhouse, or out my office, think I'm adopted

[Chorus]
Middle of April, tell me how you carrying on
We don't really talk anymore
I feel like I've been here before, mmm
Baby I'm thankful, got you on my mind all the time
Springtime in the city, I'm crying
Had to leave my past life behind
[Verse 2]
Think I'm adopted 'cause my family didn't raise a loser
Caleb sees me as the best, but I wish I was cooler
I know exactly what I need to do, but I don't do it
I'm a champion in the eyes of God, still acting foolish, bruh
Give me a mic and a stage and I prolly won't use 'em, no
I'm such a dick to my friends, I'm surprised I ain't lose 'em, yet
I was a tree, planted deep in the Word
'Til the world went and rooted me up
What if someone gon' shoot me dead?
Those just some thoughts in my head but it's April now
I leave the cold in the winter, won't say it now
All of my songs about God, I'm gon' play 'em now
I'm in a cycle of working and laying 'round town
'Cause it's spring, soon the summer is coming down
I need the sound of somebody to say they proud of me
Above me is Jesus, He say that I'm found
He say that I'm found, so I ain't gotta stress
I know that I'm blessed, I know life's a test
Life's a beach, and it's raining out
I been waiting 'round, I been praying 'bout
You, how you doing now? How you doing?

[Chorus]
Middle of April, tell me how you carrying on
We don't really talk anymore
I feel like I've been here before, mmm
Baby I'm thankful, got you on my mind all the time
Springtime in the city, I'm crying
Had to leave my past life behind
[Outro]
Give me something to hold onto
Keep me in control
Middle of April, baby I'm thankful
I was on a downward spiral
Now I'm looking up
Thinking 'bout you, girl
Changing my channels