​j. sula
​when i leave, will you stay?
[Verse 1]
I'm afraid of what will happen to me
Never thought that this would happen to me
Can't tell the lie that I have been looking
I only brought up some cash and CDs
Maybe this hype is self-manufactured
Bravado and courage and passion
It's just phony and faux like the fur that I wear
Used to pride on my hair 'til they cut on my hair
I'm feeling bare, like the minimum, that's all I strove to do ever
Shoot for the stars? Man, I could never
I dare you to do what I do, only better
But honestly, you'd still prolly do it better
Obviously used to hanging with depression
People just leave like the trees in the autumn
Hard keeping faith when you ain't even saw Him
But I seen His miracles save me from stardust

[Chorus]
Hard times come through once in a while
Most of the time, I can be fine
But sometimes it's too much for me just to front on
Sometimes my soul's feeling drier than Tucson
I can't pretend that I'm always okay
I gotta know, when I leave, will you stay?
[Verse 2]
I must admit, I'm a little bit cynical
'Cause she left when mission was critical
Maybe 'cause my friends just talk out their asses
Or 'cause I failed out my classes
I can't depend on nobody
I need you, I hope this is true
Don't want to feel like I did, baby blue

[Chorus]
Hard times come through once in a while
Most of the time, I can be fine
But sometimes it's too much for me to just front on
Sometimes my soul's feeling drier than Tucson
I can't pretend that I'm always okay
I gotta know, when I leave, will you stay?

[Verse 3]
Fictional characters got it better than me, that's embarrassing
I've spent eighteen long years in America
And I'll always rep for my area
I'll always rep for the people I chose to call friend
Even if friends disappoint me again
Can't cut 'em off like some loose threads
God told me it isn't time yet
But if they all leave, I'm fine with it
Can't be mad, that's none my business
Never wanna talk about my intentions
'Cause that'll tug the line and make more tension
As long as you stay for a little, stay for a while
As long as you stay for a little, stay for a while
Don't wanna let go of your smile
[Chorus]
Hard times come through once in a while
Most of the time, I can be fine
But sometimes it's too much for me to just front on
Sometimes my soul's feeling drier than Tucson
I can't pretend that I'm always okay
I gotta know, when I leave, will you stay?
Hard times come through once in a while
Most of the time, I can be fine