​j. sula
​swan
[Verse]
Laying in the backseat still, I'm feeling kinda weary
My friends like to smoke to get as high as Dhaulagiri
Ran up half a rack to get my car back
And when I got my car back, she said don't let the door smack
Ya while you on the way out, I been on the way out
I been pushing thru some blizzards tryna find my way out
It's a cold, cruel world, I just keep my face down
People told me that when I grew up, I would be great now
Tell me why I'm not great now
Swans don't start off beautiful
No, swans were made in ugly, and that isn't so unusual
Man, I'm scared of the future, what if I don't turn to swan?
What if I'm a duckling that's forgotten when I'm gone?
I guess I'm afraid, and they just said pipe down
My bed isn't made, it's no interest in my life now
Ancestors were kings and queens, I'm still bleeding royalty
All the mothers were swans, but ugly duckling's got a hold on me
Try to see the world as pretty but it doesn't measure up too often
Or, maybe it's just me that sees the autumn
It can't be summer all year, like I want it to
The leaves have started falling
(The trees will start to blossom)

[Outro]
I sat on a bench by the lake, watching the swans swim
Dipping underwater, see them diving to the bottom