​j. sula
​ebb&flow
[Verse]
It's brilliant, the past, it's got me overthinking
Second-guessing every interaction that I've ever had
I'm analyzing, tryna read between the lines
To find the message hidden there, it might not even be one
Doesn't hurt me to try
Counting cattle in the clouds when I look up at the sky
Floating in the water, all the boats are passing me by
Filled with people that did know me but didn't give me their time
Sink or swim, I think I'm drowning, but I'm totally fine, I'm
Zoning out whenever momma lectures me
I know she wants the best for me, as reckless as I
Could be, I saw a couple argue harshly, words were thrown
And feelings hurt, but they came back together
Yeah that's love in my time, best believe I'm stuck in my prime
I'm drifting aimlessly, the wind blows northward
Satisfying dreams that ain't mine
Always up in my business about the things that I've done
They say mistakes can last forever, wish I could hit rewind (listen)
Flipping pages so I could hear what my daddy say
He speaks and I don't hear it, so I go on to pray
And it's like every day, the same thing, cycles
I'm living as a man, I'm striving for disciple