​j. sula
​temptations
[Hook]
Yeah, temptations running
Through my mind and every day I'm doing something
Detrimental to my health and to my faith
That I have cultivated for a couple years
I say that I'm fine but living in my fear

[Verse 1]
What's life but a series of unfortunate events
In the past, that I can't even mention, huh?
I tried my best, I tried to be strong, couldn't pass that test though
Couldn't change my mental, baptized but I'm living a lie
And I cannot survive like this much longer, I hate that summer
Drown in the water, I hate my bed and love my mama
And what's my mantra? Just keep your head down
Do not say nothing, get no attention
'Cause sooner or later, it's coming
So if you could delay that day as long as you can
That will work better for you

[Bridge]
Washing my hands
Blood and the water mixing in the sand
Don't understand, if you knew me you would know why I ran

[Verse 2]
I was driving in my car one night
Pulled to a stop 'cause it was a red light, uh
Pulled out my phone, it was okay because I was alone
I was just chilling, this light took a while to get green
I had just gotten home from the clean
Then out of nowhere, I'm hearing a roar
Car next to me, it wasn't there before
Roll down the window, he clutching a strap
Now I'm here panicked, I'm getting attacked
He got a Glock and he cocking it back
Then he go aim and then "Bap bap bap"
Shoot, I sped away, he still right on me, he still goin' spray
Whole time I'm scared as hell, I gotta pray, see the next day
I wasn't okay, how did I get in this mess
And then how do I get out, I'm calling distress, but
Look in the mirror, try to go look for the car I was fearing
But it disappeared, still at the red light but filled up with fear
Damn, that was temptations
All in my head but it got my heart racing, huh
I think I made it, turn signal on
Swing to the left and I'm headed back home
I'm still alone, walk to my door
Sneaking back in, and there's squeaks in the floor
Don't care anymore, I slipped my shoes off
And kicked it in bed, wanted to pray but I knocked out instead
I wasn't dead but close
[Hook]
Yeah, temptations running (adios)
Through my mind and every day I'm doing something
Detrimental to my health and to my faith
That I have cultivated for a couple years
I say that I'm fine but living in my fear

[Verse 3]
If I could take two puffs of that gas, I wouldn't, edge's straight
People clowning on me, please give me a break
Like it's all normal, put on my suit and tie, headed to formal
I made a stop in my car and then shifted to park
Now the backseat got secrets to keep
I lost my trousers, and a couple hours
Passed by and I went and put that girl to sleep, sheesh
That was temptations, I can't be proud when I ain't even make it
Guess I was faking, cheese

[Hook]
Temptations running
Through my mind and every day I'm doing something
Detrimental to my health and to my faith
That I have cultivated for a couple years
I say that I'm fine but living in my fear

[Outro]
Been dealing with this since eleven
Wondering if I could still make it into Heaven
I heard I've been forgiven, but I'm feeling guilt
I sinned and that's the reason why the blood was spilled