1. i dreamt i dreamt you up to be something you’re not, a phantom that engulfed me into its arms but made sure i’m far enough that i don’t notice i’d fall right through.


2. i woke up into a paradox of the inside of my skull, it was a dream wrapped around another, a shape in the fog outlining everything you’re not.


3. i dreamt of you in a nightgown, wrapped up in bedsheets, kissing me good morning, your morning breath a tub of honey i soak in.


4. i don’t know why i keep dreaming of you unbound.


5. i dreamt a dream so big it could not fit us both, i bathed you in my words and dried you off with my thoughts.


6. we talked by the poolside about nothing, it was more than i wanted you to know.


7. i dreamt, and i dreamt, and i dreamt, my pupils shaking under my eyelids, making an alternate reality where your chest isn’t a net my skin cuts through, an alternate reality where your chest is somewhere i can tell my mother i’m going to.


8. i dreamt you up to be an entity that resides on the outskirts of my mind, an entity that i stumble upon when i am scouring the tiniest of thoughts.


9.i dreamt you up to be worthy.

10.i dreamt i rang your doorbell and you opened the door as a towel hangs off of you. your hair wasn’t wet but you seemed full of guilt.


11.i asked you what you’re thinking, the blank stare you gave wrote me a letter that reiterates your existence into oblivion.


12. i dreamt you up to be something holier, you wrote me books that fit best on the front of my father’s car. i can’t tell apart your quotes from my thoughts, maybe that’s what made it clear it’s a dream.


13. i dreamt i woke up, walked through a long hallway unlit and dimmed out, to an image of you on the piano. you were not moving a muscle but the music emit from the curve of your back, the one i promised not to break.


14. i dreamt i sent you letters, you never wrote me back.
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