I hate the smell you left in my bathroom
Of [?] and cigarettes
In my bathroom

I wish you never came over
I wish I never had sex with you
If I could go back in time to be sober
I'd tell myself "don't go in there"

Hurtin' myself
Keepin' my bed busy at night
I've been takin' time to heal
I'm really doin' numbers on me

I wish that I wouldn't've had you stay
Your kisses you would give to me
Had a bitter, weird taste

Tell me what you think
Do you really love me?
I hate the way you fеlt
On top of me
Tried to push you off
But I couldn't move
Not likе you raped me
I never said "no"
I do regret
Having you here
In my bed
Leavin' me weird-feeling
Inside of my head
Knowin' you were right
That I should of said
"I'm busy tonight"

I'm busy tonight
Busy tonight

I wish I pushed you off me
I wish I told you to stop
I'm doin' harm to my body
I wish I told you to get off

Doin' things to my body
Doin' harm to my mind
I should of pushed you off me
But I didn't say anything

I shouldn't of had you here
I shouldn't of had you here
I'm trynna rinse my body
But my bathroom smells like cigarettes
Rape isn't rape if I said I wanted it
Just because I regret it, doesn't mean I was raped
But I feel like I am hatin' myself
Tryin' hard just to feel like myself