(Something's not right, I don't understand)

Nowadays I keep to myself
Everybody else can look some other way
Things I say seem to get me into trouble
That I've been through for too many days

And trouble is a friend of mine
I'd like to leave behind
I like my friends more refined

Things I lose, weighing on my heart
Every time I start to think maybe it's through
A little lie, goes a long way
When you can't say quite for sure what's the truth

The truth is something no one really
Wants to hear you say
Just how you doin' and have a nice day

Nowadays you go for a walk
Better not stop and wave or say hello
Just as soon, people will spit, give you shit
Just for looking at them and walking too slow

Slowly and methodically
I'll lock the world away
Haunted by my better days