Extortionist
Imbalance
Here I am, a broken man
Trying to make it through these days
Trying the best i can
To silence the voice that lurks inside my head
To cease the desire to be one with the dead

I never thought my life would come to this
A mental illness that I wish did not exist
I used to feel alive. Now I feel nothing
I feel empty inside
I'm not worth anything
I would give up all i have just to feel something
I would give all i have to not feel like this

My times' running out. I'm drowning in self doubt, my insecurities and a haunting voice that I wish would get out
Rid me of these thoughts before all hope is lost
Rid me of these thoughts before I'm dead and gone

I wake up every day with a decision that I have to face
Do i continue to live this life that I hate?
I feel dead to the world. Nothing but worthless in my eyes
Constantly asking myself why do i even try?

I try my best to pull myself off of the floor
No matter what I do I still hear death knocking on my door
I have been in search of something more
I can't keep living a life that i fucking deplore
Clouded vision, caused by all the hurt
My moral compass has lead me face down in the dirt
I've lost my worth and i can't be saved
I've dug my own grave now please forget my face