Lil Ugly Mane
LET GO OF THE HABIT
Aye yo, I saw my man the other day he say he need a handout
Said he had some live and some boy but it ran out
His partner had a number, but connections didn’t pan out
And every road he dialed was looking like the same route
Told him he could blame it on the cocaine drought
Since the boys got arraigned and all the names came out
Now I don’t know nobody dealing, sitting on the steps by the library building
Busted him a short and I asked about his children
Told me he ain’t seen ‘em since they momma tried to kill him
Laughed and told the homie I forgot about that shit
She caught you in the crib rollin off in a fat bitch
Tried to pull the heater but you hid under the mattress
And jumped out the window butt naked, it was classic
I paused cuz the homie wasn’t laughing with me
So I tried to switch the topic up causally
He exhaled smoke and threw his hat in the street
Said, “playa I don’t understand what happened to me
Remember how I used to live extravagantly
White Jays, scuffed 3s, with immaculate steez
Stacked Gs, cop keys like they was practically free
Now I’m scrambling these streets with this raggedy tee”
I was puzzled by his feelings of inadequacy
Then I saw the track mark when he pulled back on his sleeve
Yea, my homie got a habbit it seems
Sad, cuz I kinda wanna dap him and leave
But I been down the some road so I put it on front street
Then he stepped back like he wanted to punch me
Told him, sit down, it’s been a minute since we hung out
Apologized for bringing out the fact that he was strung out
Caught me off guard, and I know that lifes hard
But I really hate to see the homie in the graveyard
Cuz all I wanna do is see my people live large
I always try to see my people better than they are
He told me he would he would clean up, said it was a promise
Looked me in my eyes to imply that he was honest
But I know that I would lie too, back when I was on it
So even though I nodded I was feeling broken hearted
He the homie though, regardless, so I know I gotta trust him
Told him I won’t bring it up in any more discussions
Then I hit him with some ones, probably bout a dozen
He told me he was staying with his auntie and his cousin
But I saw the bitch later and she told me that wasn’t
Told me if she saw him she would snitch him to the government
Said he on some foul shit, she ain’t even love him
I was bugging, I know he on the needle how she talking hopeless
Told me that he was evil, he didn’t have emotions
Said they found his babies with their throats slit, and he the culprit
I’m like, oh shit, step back, how she go against blood like that?
That’s the homie from the way back
Looking at the stars like, “what the fuck could make you say that?
Naw love, I can’t even play that.”
It’s hard to light a smoke when you trying to breathe
Cuz deep down I know she ain’t lying to me
Cuz deep down I know she ain’t lying to me…

Your homeboys change sometimes
And the thoughts rearrange in their brains sometimes
It’s too hard dealing with the pain sometimes
But you gotta let go, you can’t save their lives