Dear everything
Today I witnessed a crucifixion
In pink and lavender and gold
I've heard people say
That beauty is in details
But I don't think
They have ever seen you

There were mortal wounds
Inflicted on the sky
And incriminating blue stains on my shirt
The shirt you bought for me
Christ it hurts
Like stars in my belly going supernova
I feel like a zombie that refuses to live
Haunting the junkyards
And cutting myself on scraps of you

The other day
I masturbated to pictures of you
At your birthday party
They were the only ones I still had
It felt so wrong
Just like my life
I hope I'm dead
By the time you read this
I love you