The Holdup
Honest
[Verse 1]
Something's wrong it's been 2 days
and that's too long for you to not say shit
What's going on? Feels like I'm being played
and I'm way too honest for you to play games
but, I'm tryin' not to give into pride
Tried to tell the truth when I look in your eyes
but, you're afraid I'll say I'm over you first
so you ignore me just so you don't get hurt
It's not fair, it's not fair
You're too scared, you're too scared
that someone else will hurt you and you're tryin' to be prepared
but, all you're really doing is damaging me the same was done to you
but, I won't let you leave all your baggage with me,
something I refuse to do.

[Chorus]
I'm sick of putting myself out there and getting
I'm tired of tellin' myself I don't care, when I know I care for sure
because I need to be honest now,
but, I honestly don't know how

[Verse 2]
Said you got some things on your mind
That I'm overreacting and you just needed some time
I get the feeling you think that I'm blind
Told me to be patient and I told you that I'm tryin'
but, I wish I could believe you
You got a wall up, that now I can see through
I wish that I could need you
but, you're not being truthful, I'd never deceive you
I'm tryna grow up here, I'm tryna be honest
There's no point in games if we both really want it
but you're too afraid and that's not what I wanted
I thought you were great but you're breakin' your promise
You're always gonna risk gettin' hurt
and maybe that's what gives up it's worth
but, bein' alone would be worse
You need to accept it, you're never protected.
[Chorus]

[Verse 3](James Melo)
Yeah, I've been a little careless but, in all fairness
Girl, I never really had a chance
I used to be awesome at weighin' my options
and makin' my mind up way in advance
I thought I was prepared for my life, didn't care
and I wasn't aware, 'til you walked down the stairs
with your hair all done up, looking sexually fearless
and whispered a line in my ear that I shouldn't repeat
cause my mother could hear this, but,
at the time I don't that I could have cared less
For awhile I believed every word that you told me
and never would question when you would ignore more me
and leave for the night, while I'm deep in a session
and come back in a different shirt than you left in
oh, I get it now, shit, this is kinda depressing
but I guess it's called learning my lesson

[Chorus]