I said it with my hand
Over my mouth
So you wouldn't see
That ugly part of me

And I wish I wouldn't break down
Around
The three weeks I had
Clean
And I wish I wouldn't break down
Again and again

'Cause it's been three long years
But feels more like 10
But I'm going home
Oh no

There's an old me there too
And I don't wanna care anymore
But I feel like I can't

And I wish I wouldn't break down
Around
The three weeks I had
Straight
And I wish I wouldn't break down
Around
The two weeks I had
'Cause I don't wanna die in New York
I don't wanna die in New York
I don't wanna die in New York
I don't wanna die in New York

'Cause I don't wanna die in New York
I don't wanna die in New York
But I feel like I am
No I won't
No I can't
No I won't
No, no, no

'Cause I don't wanna die in New York
I don't wanna die in New York
But I feel like I could
No I won't
No I can't
No I won't
No, no, no

'Cause I don't wanna die in New York
I don't wanna die in New York
I don't wanna die in New York
I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die