I been away for too long
Nobody knows where I've gone
I spent 6 months tryna figure out life
And I still feel I'm living it wrong

I feel the smoke in my lungs
I never did it for fun
I did it because if I didn't
I'd flip the fuck out and blow up like a bomb

Lost in the broken pieces
Life is a bitch, I don't think that I need this
I do not get why I cannot keep it together
I might just be fucking like this forever

God, where in the fuck was you at
Every night when I lied wide awake in my bed?
Telling you save me cause if you didn't
Then I might just go put it straight to my head

You'll never know what the fuck I been through
You'll never know what the fuck I can do
Until it's too late, until I'm too far
I'm on my 6th year, still making new bars

You coulda been here, you coulda seen me
Stupid fuck but you decided to leave me
I'm not alive, I don't think that I'm breathing
I'll never find what the fuck I am needing
Blood, tears, I've seen it all I don't have any fear
Death's near, don't be surprised if I go disappear
Shivers and goosebumps all through my body from head to toe
Figures, I'm too fucked, Detmer kept telling me not to let go