[Intro]
These pills are meant to help me sleep
But all they do is keep me wide awake, wide awake
This smile I wear on my face is just a mask and this is all so fake, all so fake

[Verse]
Heart attack, can't keep my heart intact, I keep on falling back
Hoes come and go, it's nice and all, but I want more than that
Had a bad bitch but it felt like I was forcing that
Fighting for another when they won't, there's nothing worse than that
Life is just a cycle, guess I haven't learned my lesson
Even if I really wanted to, I couldn't go to heaven
Bad thoughts, soul gone, bitch you can get to stepping
I'm not giving you my heart to use it on me as a weapon
All that I am is what I was
Depression hasn't left me, I don't think it really does
I think it just shapeshifts to different shit, how long can I keep doing this?
Writing songs to feel alright, there's gotta be more to this
Feels like my long nights are just for me to suffer, just because
Thought I started fitting in, I never was, my life's a bust
Will I ever find a friend? Don't really care
All I really want right now is to drop dead right now and here
Heart shot, blasted, emotions always masked with
Things I like to do but really shouldn't, I'm imbalanced
But I'll find my way someday cause I don't like the life I live
Fuck these hoes, don't hit me up cause I don't got no pipe to give
Tried that shit, not fit for me, I just want someone here for me
I had a person but I pushed 'em back, it wasn't clear to me
They were really true to every word they ever said to me
All I wanted back then was a bad bitch in the bed with me
Temptations, I gotta be patient
Working on my problems with these songs, not embrace it
You don't really want the talent that I got, I hate it
I don't want the fame cause shit to me, I fuckin' made it
I'll never stop falling apart, all I can do is pick up the parts
Make myself whole just to break once again
It's a cycle that most don't realize that we're in
God just help me out, I'm tryna give away my soul
I pray to become right, sometimes I want the money more
Hades already hit me back with the boxes
I'm not on the trail, I took a turn and I lost it
Don't let them take me, I need an angel to save me
I hope this world doesn't break me, I'm still asleep, fuckin' wake me