​unknxwn.
​stupid.
[Intro]
Ken, I fucking hate you

[Verse]
Write these songs like I got some to say
But when in person ain't got none to say cause
I'm a stupid, broken, anxious shell of a man, I don't think that I can
Reach every goal that I had in the plan, I took a turn on the path that I had
So close, yet so damn far, how can I feel love with a broken heart?
Coming this far kinda blows my mind
Still sometimes I just want a hole in mine
Carrying weight with a broken spine, I get so full of hope in a hopeless time
'Cause that's all I got to rely on, where was God when I needed the light on?
I was stuck in lightless place when he took who I loved to a lifeless space
That was fucking forever ago but the feeling I felt, it won't ever just go
And sometimes I don't think that it's better to cope
I do better at this when I'm hurting the most
I bled for this, I shed for this, went to heaven and jumped into hell for this
I'm bred for this, was fed for this, burned every bridge just to care for this
But you won't understand, don't even care if you can
I'm so full of myself, I be foolin' myself
Tryna act like it's cool when I'm crying for help
When I know that it's not, but I won't ever admit that
I still feel like I'm lost but imma still just pretend that
Everything is a-okay, even when I hate every day
Every waking moment is a moment closer to the day
I'll really find out if all this agony was worth the wait
Or if it didn't even matter at fucking all
I get this urge I should just splatter this fucking wall
With every piece of me that holds these secrets deep beneath
The surface that you see in me
These curtains here conceal a beast that I don't wanna show nobody