[Verse 1]
You got marker on your hand
Holding shoulders, I saw a policeman drive by
Heel to dirt I felt that couldn't cut my wrist
And I spent hours on

[Refrain]
I'd have held myself much closer then
I'd have held myself much closer then

[Chorus]
It's my party and I'll cry if I want to
Hearing personal last names

[Verse 2]
Never felt like I got off that train
In the back of your apartment I would lay down
Feel the burden of that carpet
Brush my cheek and I spent hours on

[Refrain]
I'd have held myself much closer then

[Chorus]
It's my party and I'll cry if I want to
Hearing personal last names
Calm the stutter I could lie like you have to
Just enough to make you wait
[Verse 2]
Pooling like the blood around my knuckles
Or the lake around your parents house
Or the cut along your eyelid
Heavy in the way I trace my losses
In the glass where I had only stood
I could lapse around your offers
Feigning like you don't know what to call it
In the pace along your brother's eye
Or the tremble in your hands now