[Verse]
Sometimes I really wonder if I'm only gettin' dollars 'cause I fucked up
Never kept a job, they told me, "Kid, you better buck up"
No one ever like you if you sad and you be stuck up
Thinking on my past and all the things that really fucked up
My mental, I be on a roll, I'm smokin' menthol
Mix it with the ganja, now it's foggy in the temple
Thought that I saw God but only really saw a rental
Everybody sellin' it, it's only fundamental
Washin' my hands, 'cause Ion really wanna get sick
Steppin' outside, and then we'll prolly all just get hit
That was all for nothing, you gеt hit with the stick
Your brain gon' be split, ain't no one rеmember what you spit, mmm, ayy
And I could go all day
Sippin' whiskey out the bottle just to be okay
I destroy my fuckin' guts and put it on display
You hear what I say, y'all just can't confront the thoughts I wanna convey, ayy
I get some money piling checks
You could check my bank account and see these numbers, all the rest
Is just pretending they got Gucci and some Prada just to flex
But Ion even play that shit, I keep it humble, I'm a mess
You could hand me the Glock, I point it straight up at my brain
Everybody lookin' at me like they think I went insane
So I won't pull the trigger even at the end of the day
I'm going insane, I'm drowning in pain, I wanna be named
As the big bad wolf, you could catch me alone
I'm in a big bad mood while I sit on my throne
A messy ass room, you know how we do
I'm makin' it through, I'm paying everything that gotta be due
I'm sippin' some whiskey while I'm writing these words
I know they coming out too real, and you just think I'm absurd
For all the thoughts inside my brain, it's getting worse like every day
No, I'm just kidding, I'm just playing, I know I'll be okay
How the fuck I get here? Was supposed to be a big year
Now I'm sittin' in my room, I got a grave to dig here
Know it's been a while since I really only been here
Grinding every day just to really only get here
Yo, like where the fuck did my life go?
I wake up every day like, "Where the fuck did the time go?"
Could really give a fuck, it's all about the survival
I'm writing all this down like it's a verse in the Bible
I get stuck, inside this part of my mind
That says I'm really not okay, but I just wanna be fine
But fuck it, we just keep on ballin', gettin' money in time
'Cause maybe if I just ignore it then I'll really be fine, yeah
They say, "HK can't spit"
What you call this, boy, got me chompin' at the bit
Got respect for all the OGs and the new school kids
We could really take it over, now watch this, bitch, yeah
Heard me spit, now you coppin' my flow, yeah
Gettin' lit while I'm pullin' the dough, uh
Don't wanna talk, so just leave me alone
I'm blowin' smoke on my own, all my OGs know, ayy
And I believe that we could get it
Everything we ever wanted, everything you've ever listed
All the money and the fame, and the bright and sunny days
All the dreams we always had before the happy went away
I'm, never stoppin' you could try me, bitch
Every day I'm holding on, call that shit true grit
I never even really thought of all the times I slipped
I'm over it, I'm taking real control of it, yeah
People pay to hear me talk
Listen to me while they walk, gettin' money in stocks
Workin' to the same old song
Flippin' burgers or they thuggin' while they run from the cops
Or they be raising their kids, with all my music in the back
I know that shit be really hard when you been staying off the crack
But you been stayin' on the track, so why you even lookin' back?
I know you got this, yeah, you got this, it's a war, but you attack, uh
We all just got one quest
Gettin' money when we ain't at our best, gettin' paid, fuck the rest
Doing what we do upon nobody request
I know that I'ma make it, so I say it with my chest, yeah
Got more bars than a penitentiary
More than just a check is what it really mean to me
Staying on my path, 'cause I said fuck the enemy
Speakin' with my flow 'cause I know it was meant to be, yeah