Buckroll on the beat

[Verse 1]
I've always been unaware of my own abilities
Shorty tryin’ to fuck me and a homegirl feelin' me too
Shit I'm really that dude
It’s all I used to dream about chillin' at school
But now my real life don't really feel that real anymore
Now I been feeling like I don't know how to feel anymore
She think I feeling her but really I'm just filling a void
Hurting your feelings to prevent myself, I'm feeling destroyed
But when you ain't okay, I pray for your restoration at health
I just can't help you bae, my nature is preservation itself
So I been worried ’bout, Calen over anybody else
Cause when I help them, it’s the only time anybody healths
So I might as well, focus on me and me only
Riding 'round the country, just me and three homies
Hotel to hotel with hoes on my coattails
Text before every show, hoping that it goes well

[Chorus]
And if I never get to see your face again, oh well
One thing I learnt about relationships, is most fail
And I love you ain’t nothing but another lie, we both tell
On the road, spending time alone, trying let my soul heal
[Verse 2]
No lie, mama I can see the look in your eyes
And tell you miss your son more with every day that goes by
I try, to be who you depend on to provide
But it's hard, 'cause lately I barely been making it by
Still the same stupid n***a spending money I don't even have
Roll a swisher till’ that bitch thicker than a sleeping bag
My bitch think I need her back, no bitch I need a bag
With a whole lotta racks in there
Whole fam at my hometown show but my dad isn't
Now it's headlining, fuck it I just kept grindin'
I don't get mad, 'cause you don't see n***as upset shinin'
Ain't gon' never catch me trippin' on it
I know sometimes you gotta miss a moment
Just to get a bigger moment
But I been waiting on my moment forever
I've always kept a solid heart
And never let it fall apart
But now it's hard for me to hold it together
I'm doing better