Popping pills to block the mental pain
But a broken heart you can't medicate
In a room full of people I feel outta place
Got me running from my demons but can't get away
Addicted to the painkillers, I hope it ain't the death of me
Anxiety is killing me, this shit done got the best of me
Can't believe my girl left, it's fucking with me mentally
Crazy how the love of your life turns to yo enemy
Man keep a smile on my face but I'm blue inside
Should I swallow all these pills? Committing suicide
Don't think I'm brave enough, I battle with this pain enough
My life so unhealthy, I think it's time to change it up
Still tryna learn to put the love in myself
N***as think that I'm just rapping but I'm crying for help
& to my boy just know I miss you
There ain't nothing I wouldn't give to you
No matter what yo momma say I loved you unconditional
I know yo momma hate me & she probably won't forgive me for it
Bottle on the dresser, I continue pouring
Tryna numb the pain I feel dawg this mental pain is real
If you ain't never have depression, you don't know how that shit feel
You like a prisoner in yo mind
Death is a blessing
Push yo loved ones away
& drugs become yo best friend
Man these pills become yo best friend
Won't give my heart away again
N***a learned his lesson for real