(Hook)
My tea's gone cold
I'm wondering why I got out of bed at all
The morning rain clouds up my window
And I can't see at all
And even if I could it'd all be gray
But your picture on my wall
It reminds me that it's not so bad, it's not so bad

(Verse 1)
What's up bro, I ain't heard from you in a minute though
I know we go to different schools, still thought we could kick it though
I heard that you been wilding out, yo common sense minimal
And I heard you been rapping too but you always been lyrical
I know you hate when people talk about what they heard
But the word is you been absurd and yo vision is blurred
The verdict I referred to told me that you're stirred
It's urgent you embrace it, don't push feels to the curb
I'm observant, you think you a burden, but never to me
Inside my brain, heart, and soul you maintain residency
Hard exterior, but yo insides are a delicacy
Just to send this text you I did it hesitantly
What I'm tryna say is, it took a lot for me to write you
I already know you battling yourself and I don't wanna fight you
My brain assess too highly and I thought that I would invite you
To know, that I'm gay and I think I like you

(Hook)

(Verse 2)
Forever beyond me why you reacted like that
Told me to stay up out yo life, called me a faggot like that
Told everyone we was never cool, why you capping like that
And I was always there for you, now you ain't having my back
If I would've knew it was like that then I never would've told you
We grew up together, now I gotta act like I don't know you
You was out here laughing at me, like we was never best friends, well I know yo secrets too and really could expose you
But I ain't gone do that, that ain't the way that it is
Plus nothing worse than being gay so nobody wouldn't trip
My mom found out too and kicked me out of the crib
I'm bouncing bus stop to bus stop, I ain't got nowhere to live
But I don't want yo sympathy, ever since you flipped on me
I just took a step back and I see the whole world differently
Suicide done crossed my mind and in my dreams so vividly
My left and right hemisphere they no longer have no symmetry
You could've said you was straight, said you wasn't into me
Instead you snapped on me like I was testing masculinity
But I don't care dawg, man what's done is done
I just don't understand why you can't comprehend that love is love
I guess it only matters to you when it's a man and a woman, or a boy and a girl, avoiding the swirl
Of sexuality, get out the pool so the world
Can recognize there's more to life than just a fool's gold and pearls

(Hook)

(Verse 3)
Uh oh, that little homo, done got a .44
He going loco his soul though is just a no show
Separation from his sanity got him feeling so so
And that rainbow flag to me is more than a logo
See that red in my head, cause that's really all I see now
Aren't you 'posed to be there for me you acting senile
I yell out for help because that's really all I need now
Thought money could make it better it's deeper than the green now
Had a dream I blew top back and it was better as well
In the end it go *gunshot* then it's heaven or hell
Extra violent scene when they finding my body
Get higher per pull of the weed then I'm gripping the shotty
Do I wanna use the pump, do I wanna use the 4
Do I wanna hit the freeway, do I wanna use a rope
You could've prevented this if you would've been there for me
Read my message, processed it, and thought it through more carefully
But you ain't really give a damn dawg, that's really selfish
You knew you was all I had and now I'm out her helpless
Do you hear that scream, that's my optimism begging me
Not to kill the both of us but he already dead to me
Do you see what words can do and how they ended my life
We could've still been friends, I ain't have to make you my wife
I have no motivation for me to get out the bed
Except today cause I realized I really wanted to be dead

(Hook)

(Verse 4)
Apologized a million times dawg and I hope that you hearing me
I'm far far too late but know I mean it sincerely
You had a bright future, you was like fifth in yo class
You ain't deserve to die because you like some di- Nah
Let me take this serious, really I'm delirious
When you first came to me dawg I really was so furious
Felt like you was testing me, I don't roll that way period
Now I realize not to judge people based off appearances
And preferences cause ever since my words been burning me
Really said I hate you over something not concerning me
I could've just declined, we could've still been cool
Probably spit a couple rhymes, and kicked it after school
But I tried to impress people who ain't there or nothing
And a big magical man who upstairs or something
I heard homophobia, looked at the suffix, thought that meant I was fearing you and said I ain't scared of nothing
Do you believe the idiocracy
Won't hang with you but hang with killers, feed the hypocrisy
Mind can't be measured by no speed or velocity
My brain and thoughts moving slower than a game of Monopoly
A good man died simply cause of my actions
Everyone posting on Instagram with hundreds of captions
You was always there for me, on my brightest and my dimmest days
And the one time that you needed me I just couldn't reciprocate
I'm sorry