Verse 1 Jonathan Shapiro:
Honestly sometimes I think that I just really hate you
Never had the balls to say it but why did I date you
Even when I tried my best nothing would ever make due
And please dont think I made this song just to go try to break you
I wanna let you know cause you cause u deserve it
You was basically my first kiss all the times I called you perfect
You kept making me feel worthless
It's so hard for me to word this
Cause I never ever really bring my feelings to the surface
You're a blessin cause your curses spurred this hate inside
And now Im learning how it feels to deal with anger
But I dont even know why I'm so damn angry
Actually maybe it's how you manipulate me
Taking all the joy from my energy and deflate me
Telling me I'm weak when I'm sitting with you and painting
It's ironic cause I'm stronger than you think you couldn't break me
I hope that when you hear this you tell ur friends that you hate me
I hope that you find a way better guy to go replace me
I hope that you block me on everything and go erase me
I hope that you lift up your middle finger when you see me
I hope that you mean it I hope you treat me like I'm some sort demon For no reason I hope you hope I'm bleeding I hope you burn all the Notes I sent you before you read it

Hook:
Now I'm feeling lost when I wake up
Sometimes I just wish that we could makeup
Then I think how much you made me hate love
So I wanna thank you for the brake up
Wish I was ghost
Least I got my friends
We been through most
Take the pen and pad
Now I feel afloat
And I'm already starting to forget about you got my crew by my side and they always make due

Verse 2 Varsity:
Yah and they always make due
My homies said dont check your texts delete your messages
Took a couple second and now I'm pressing with emphasis
Evidence in front of me shit was way too evident
You were next in present tense so go and crack the beverages
And dont apologize I ain't buying it if you selling it
Know you fucking lying I'm trying to keep my temper in
But you too fucking stubborn you too negligent
Remember when I cried you had the heart to call me feminine
You fucking a bully they told me but ignored it fully
Smoking my aroma and I'm hoping that you are feeling lonely
Blow me huh it wouldn't be the first time
Know I sound spiteful kinda like when you told your first lie
Not tryna be self righteous I hate it when we lack this relationship caught a virus
I forgot about the good times
Loved you now I hate you
No more good guy I moved on what it look like
(Vars)



Verse 3:
I remember that first night that I met you
Now I regret you I let you into my head and the outcome is what I went through I never meant to resent you but I can't fake these emotions they potent flow in my blood like the ocean haunting my soul like the omen left me alone in the coldness wish I was man I told this right to you face but just like you explained I'm weak and I'm fake
How you gonna tell me who I am when you dont know me
You told me that you loved me when you left me to my lonely
Every second with you degrading on me slowly
You told me I'm your one and only but you never showed
I'm sorry I'm sorry oh wait I'm sorry yet again
Always making me apologize it messing up with head even when you hurt me in the core it's my fault till I'm dead and you mad I ain't responding but you left me up on read
I'm so damn stupid l
Let you in my heart
But I knew you would leave it wounded
I've got so much to say and so much anger inside me I've been waiting to burst but I've been acting so modestly I can handle the hate but my capacitys great so I just write quick poem and then the urge go away I've got so many secrets I wanna tell but I keep em I could degrade you death but Ive been saving my breath so please stop hating me less because I'm greater with stress